I will remember......always!

Tomorrow is Memorial Day, to some its just another day off work that you might get paid for. Lots of people have barbeque's and hang out with friends and family on this day, why not its fun. Yes I have the day off tomorrow, and yes I will be grilling with friends, but tomorrow holds a greater importance to me than just a chance to hang with friends.

You see I am a military wife. I have been for over 10 years. My life is the military, although at times it can be stressful, especially times like now when my spouse is away, I love it. I know what the military men and women do for our country. I know the sacrifices they make, and all the important dates they miss. How they miss their families, and how when the phone rings at 2am for a recall, they must go. I know how military spouses bond, how sometimes, they seem like your family, especially when you spend your holidays with them and not your family back home. Military life is unique, and I am thankful to be a small part in it.

So tomorrow as always I will think of the military men and women, think of everything they do so that my family and yours stay safe and have all the liberties we have as Americans. I will also thank them, thank them for everything they do, for without them our lives would be very different.

To my uncle, may you rest in peace, thank you for serving our country! To my husband, Thank you for continuing to serve our country, I know you are sacrificing time with the kids and I, but I am so proud of you for all that you do!!! I love you babe!

Thank you to all those who serve, to all those who have served, and all those who died serving! You will forever hold a special place in my heart and will always be apart of my family.


So what will you be doing tomorrow?

Always Remember!!

Friday.......some think it might be the last

So I woke up and felt great!!! I played on the computer a lil bit. Matt woke up and guess what!?! He has been fever free ALL day!!!! He still is not eating much but he did eat breakfast. he was full of energy today, playing and everything.

I decided to stop being a lazy bum and cleaned up my back yard. I then mowed the grass. Which I have to say yay me cause it was a lil warm, I worked up a yucky sweat!!! I did a couple more chores today too so overall a productive day.

I picked Erick up and he had his report card, He is progressing very nicely, gotta work on actually turning in the homework. But he is doing well. He also got his TerraNova test results back and I am very impressed because Erick struggles with reading and he scored higher than 45% of the kids in the nation on the same test. All of his scores were in the Average range as well. Way to go Erick!!!!

After we got home I talked to the hubby for a little bit, I always look forward to this time of day. I feel like my heart swells and I get a captured moment just between us. it is always the highlight of my day even if we just talk about what we did that day. So while talking to the hubby Matt went upstairs, at least I thought he did. This is what he really did:

isn't this just precious!!!

Well Like my post says it Friday, time to unwind and rejoice that I made it through this stressful week. I leave you with my two fav drinks at the moment:

Jagerbomb, cheers NINI

Vodka, Gatorade, Red bull, Cheers baby!!!







So just in case it is the "last Friday" CHEERS!!!

hmmmmmm.......

My little guy is sick. You would think with as much medical technology we have now a days that they would be able to tell me an accurate diagnosis for my baby. he has been sick for 5 days. He has had a fever since 4am Monday morning, plus chills and complaining of his body hurting. Tuesday he is still like this and he doesn't want to eat. So I take him to the ER (no I don't believe in wasting money by taking him to the ER for nonsense, the clinic was closed due to base functions). They swabbed his tonsils when we got there.

The doctor came in and examined Matt. She checked his ears, his throat, heart, and his breathing. She told me that the swab came back negative, but that he had all the symptoms of strep. At this point I feel bad that my child has strep but thankful that I went with my instincts and brought him to the doc. They gave him a shot in the ass, antibiotics they said, (they knew I sucked at remembering medicine!). She told me he should be better and could probably go back to school on Thursday. So today is Thursday and my child wakes up and still looks something like he did on Monday:

He still has a fever, and is very whiny.

Today: Since Matt shows no signs of improvement, I call the doc. Of course they cannot get us seen on base so I opt for a off base provider, which by the way was very nice! So we get to the appointment fill out some papers, which of course I messed up at first. Hello! I don't speak Deutsche nor do I read it ppl!! Anyway the doc sees us checks Matt out again. Asks how the other doc determined it was strep. I told him that she said "he has all the symptoms even though the test came back negative." He responds that it could be "Mononucleosis", I have no clue what that is. He says it is viral and cannot be treated with antibiotics. If there was no change over the weekend to come back Monday.

Got home found out that Mononucleosis is Mono, DUH!!!

So here is my complaint: If doctor B is correct and it is mono which is viral, doctor A just killed all my sons antibodies that cannot fight a viral infection. So does this now mean that my sons body will have to work twice as hard to fight this off. If this is the case why didn't doctor A just run a DAMN BLOOD TEST FIRST!!!!!

I LOVE MILITARY DOCTOR'S!!!!!

Day 13, no not the number of days I've been blogging!!!!

My hubby has been gone for 13 days, and in this time I have already felt like I'm going crazy. You see my hubby is deployed to the desert and although I know this is our life, a life I willingly chose and knew what I was getting into....well lets just say it can still suck at times. I think one of the hardest things about being married to the military, yes I said military because those of you who are also married to a service member know its a package deal, is switching from a family of 4 to a family of 3 and I am the one in charge now. I am the sole person taking care of the boys, and although I love them more than anything, acting as a single parent has got to be the toughest job in the world. to all those who raise your children on you own I commend you. You are doing an amazing job!!

In the time my hubby has been gone I managed to break the GPS (thankfully it didn't really break), unintentionally was responsible for my electric going out. Damn sprinkler hit an outlet, poof no electric! My cell decided to be a POS and stopped reading my SIM card (why is it called a SIM anyway?), oh and my 4 year old got strep. So I've been sitting at home for the last 3 days. Mrs. Insanely normal, sometimes is about to be just Mrs. Insane.

On a brighter note I've gotten to talk to my hubby 2 times on the phone and I get to talk to him everyday on messenger. Even though most of my support system is in the US, (currently stationed in Germany) I get to talk to them often and I have a few good friends here as well. My kids are really great, I can't complain about them, they are so awesome. They miss their daddy but also realize that mommy misses him too. Even with being stressed I am trying to remain calm when sometimes all I really want to do is scream (YAY for me!!), baby steps!!! Oh and the best news is that my hubby should be home at the End of September so he only misses one important thing, our oldest son turning 10. With video and everything though I can make sure the hubby gets to see!!!

Yes its only day 13 and it seems like it has been a lot longer, but my hubby is good, my kids are good, and I am dealing. I know September will be here soon and I cannot wait!!! Until then baby I will miss you, We will miss you!!!

my parents.......

I am 27 years old. Often times I have wondered why my parents have done or said the things they did, a lot of people said I would understand when I had children. Although this is partially true, I think a lot of my understanding came by getting older and living my life.
My mom has always been a huge part of my life, whether I wanted to admit it or not. I have always wanted to make her proud of me, while I never felt I always accomplished this I know that my mom loves me like no one else. My mom and I are so much alike that I fear it makes us butt heads and at the same time being we are both stubborn has kept me from always being as close with her as I would like to be. One of my greatest fears is to run out of time to have the relationship I want with my mom. I try to do the right things but I know that sometimes I have unrealistic expectations being that I am grown and my mom has her own worries. I understand now that my mom has always done her best where I am concerned, even though it may not have always seemed that way. I love my mom more than anything and I think the reasons that I struggle with our relationship is because I always feel I fall short in being a daughter. They always say we are our worst critics and I have to say this is a situation where it holds true. I hope that when I am older my kids will look back at their childhoods and although they may not completely understand the why's to everything that they can be proud of me the way that I am proud of my mom.
As a child I had male role models and desperately wished for a father figure. I found him when I was 8 years old. He is a wonderful man taking on children that were not always kind or agreeable to him. In fact at times down right disrespectful little shits that I'm sure at times pushed him to the point of wanting to beat us. However he stuck with us through thick and thin. Showing me that someone of true worth stands by the things they believe in. I can only hope that my boys if ever placed in a situation like him can be the man he is, I have no worries about my boys as they have an excellent role model in their dad.
Together my mom and dad have taught me so many lessons to life and have made me a responsible, opinionated, loving person with good morals and respect for others. I love you mom and dad!

Day 2: My First Love

This post has come way later than the actual Day 2. I find I have put it off, mainly because I was not sure how to put feelings into words. I know when I was younger I would use the word love loosely, stating I loved famous boys my age, this continued even with people I met. I always heard growing up that kids were too young to know what love meant. This was definitely true for me, while I used love easily, I never truly understood the meaning of it.

Years later having a family of my own and a husband I adore, I finally understand this meaning. I can honestly say that My first true love has to be my husband. For me my definition of love is standing by someone no matter what, figuring out the difficult times and relishing the good times. Doing for someone things that you wouldn't do ordinarily or for just anyone. A person that you want to spend your time with and want to make happy. A person I can count and rely on. All of these things I have only felt for one person, he is still in my life and continues to be my knight in shining armor, even after some trying times.

Introduce myself......

 I was born Mandi Lynn Sonsoucie. Don't try to say it, you'll just mess it up. Thankfully my last name is a lot easier to say now. Usually I am known by SSGT so and so's Wife. I am also known as "My Air Force Wife" by my bestie.

 I have a wonderful husband and two great children. They are 9 and 3. They surprise me everyday. I am currently a home childcare provider. I enjoy this because it has given me an opportunity to stay at home with my boys.  I intend to become a nurse at some point though.

  I love to read and listen to music. I enjoy watching movies as well. I enjoy having a nice glass(es) of wine, but I also enjoy having a good Capt' n Coke. Other than those things I'm usually loud and silly. I say whats on my mind even though this has been referred to as having no tact. Its not that I lack tact, I just don't feel the need to sugar coat things. I am not mean just opinionated. I have also been told I say the weirdest things. These are called Mandi-isms. Like when I went to a gentleman's club and seen Batista and Rick Flair, I asked "Where are their bodyguards?"  I still haven't lived that one down!!!

  One of my favorite sayings that I learned from my best friend is:
"I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and sometimes hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." - Marilyn Monroe
So that is a little about me.