my parents.......

I am 27 years old. Often times I have wondered why my parents have done or said the things they did, a lot of people said I would understand when I had children. Although this is partially true, I think a lot of my understanding came by getting older and living my life.
My mom has always been a huge part of my life, whether I wanted to admit it or not. I have always wanted to make her proud of me, while I never felt I always accomplished this I know that my mom loves me like no one else. My mom and I are so much alike that I fear it makes us butt heads and at the same time being we are both stubborn has kept me from always being as close with her as I would like to be. One of my greatest fears is to run out of time to have the relationship I want with my mom. I try to do the right things but I know that sometimes I have unrealistic expectations being that I am grown and my mom has her own worries. I understand now that my mom has always done her best where I am concerned, even though it may not have always seemed that way. I love my mom more than anything and I think the reasons that I struggle with our relationship is because I always feel I fall short in being a daughter. They always say we are our worst critics and I have to say this is a situation where it holds true. I hope that when I am older my kids will look back at their childhoods and although they may not completely understand the why's to everything that they can be proud of me the way that I am proud of my mom.
As a child I had male role models and desperately wished for a father figure. I found him when I was 8 years old. He is a wonderful man taking on children that were not always kind or agreeable to him. In fact at times down right disrespectful little shits that I'm sure at times pushed him to the point of wanting to beat us. However he stuck with us through thick and thin. Showing me that someone of true worth stands by the things they believe in. I can only hope that my boys if ever placed in a situation like him can be the man he is, I have no worries about my boys as they have an excellent role model in their dad.
Together my mom and dad have taught me so many lessons to life and have made me a responsible, opinionated, loving person with good morals and respect for others. I love you mom and dad!

Day 2: My First Love

This post has come way later than the actual Day 2. I find I have put it off, mainly because I was not sure how to put feelings into words. I know when I was younger I would use the word love loosely, stating I loved famous boys my age, this continued even with people I met. I always heard growing up that kids were too young to know what love meant. This was definitely true for me, while I used love easily, I never truly understood the meaning of it.

Years later having a family of my own and a husband I adore, I finally understand this meaning. I can honestly say that My first true love has to be my husband. For me my definition of love is standing by someone no matter what, figuring out the difficult times and relishing the good times. Doing for someone things that you wouldn't do ordinarily or for just anyone. A person that you want to spend your time with and want to make happy. A person I can count and rely on. All of these things I have only felt for one person, he is still in my life and continues to be my knight in shining armor, even after some trying times.

Introduce myself......

 I was born Mandi Lynn Sonsoucie. Don't try to say it, you'll just mess it up. Thankfully my last name is a lot easier to say now. Usually I am known by SSGT so and so's Wife. I am also known as "My Air Force Wife" by my bestie.

 I have a wonderful husband and two great children. They are 9 and 3. They surprise me everyday. I am currently a home childcare provider. I enjoy this because it has given me an opportunity to stay at home with my boys.  I intend to become a nurse at some point though.

  I love to read and listen to music. I enjoy watching movies as well. I enjoy having a nice glass(es) of wine, but I also enjoy having a good Capt' n Coke. Other than those things I'm usually loud and silly. I say whats on my mind even though this has been referred to as having no tact. Its not that I lack tact, I just don't feel the need to sugar coat things. I am not mean just opinionated. I have also been told I say the weirdest things. These are called Mandi-isms. Like when I went to a gentleman's club and seen Batista and Rick Flair, I asked "Where are their bodyguards?"  I still haven't lived that one down!!!

  One of my favorite sayings that I learned from my best friend is:
"I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and sometimes hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." - Marilyn Monroe
So that is a little about me.

the next 30 days

Day 01 – Introduce yourself
Day 02 – Your first love
Day 03 – Your parents
Day 04 – What you ate today
Day 05 – Your definition of love
Day 06 – Your day
Day 07 – Your best friend
Day 08 – A moment
Day 09 – Your beliefs
Day 10 – What you wore today
Day 11 – Your siblings
Day 12 – What’s in your bag
Day 13 – This week
Day 14 – What you wore today
Day 15 – Your dreams
Day 16 – Your first kiss
Day 17 – Your favorite memory
Day 18 – Your favorite birthday
Day 19 – Something you regret
Day 20 – This month
Day 21 – Another moment
Day 22 – Something that upsets you
Day 23 – Something that makes you feel better
Day 24 – Something that makes you cry
Day 25 – A first
Day 26 – Your fears
Day 27 – Your favorite place
Day 28 – Something that you miss
Day 29 – Your aspirations
Day 30 – One last moment

Welcoming myself to Blogging

So my friend told me I should blog, so here I am. YAY to me that I figured it out all by myself! I woke up today like any other day, dragging myself out of the bed after hitting the snooze button about 15 times. Got ready and was about to clean the floors when my door is knocked on. I wonder who this is as its about 630 in the morning. I open it up to find my new child that I wasn't sure was going to start today. BTW I am a home daycare provider. So I get the child settled and go about my cleaning. As I'm cleaning I talk to my sis on the phone. After a little bit my youngest comes into view on the steps only for him to realize "I need pants!" and starts walking backwards back up the steps, Leaving my sister and I laughing at little man. All the while he is saying "I am walking backwards on the steps pretty."